It has been a month now but i still feel like i should not be alive. The only reason i am dealing with this cursed life is because i wanted and still want to be just like you and you never taught me to back down in life. You were a winner and you taught me to be the same. I can never be a man like you but i am trying so hard to be just like you and keep you in my soul till my last breath. You were a man of honor, a man of priniciples and above all a humane person. Your love for society and your selfless character would always be my guide in my walk in life. Also, i am not angry at you for leaving me or mom because i know that if you were awake when the heart attack stabbed you in the back, you would have shown it a good piece of your willpower. It was not an age to say good bye. It was definitely not the right time for a perfectly healthy man like you. That night only, before you went to sleep i talked to you. If at all, i knew that this was going to happen, i would have never hung up or mom would have never asked you to go to bed. I miss you dad. Its so hard to fill the void in our hearts. P.S. you can imagine how hard it is on mom to bear this situation. When i face her i feel like i should kill myself. I have never felt so helpless in my life!