dear dad, From the childhood days (at least the memories of which i can recall), you were my friend, my mentor, my inspiration and my everything. I remember the days when i used to sit on your shoulders for hours and you never got me down. i remember the times when you spent sleepless nights just to ensure that not even a single mosquito could bite us. I remember the time when you used to teach us in the dim light of the lamps when power was gone. i hated when you and mom used to eat the chapatis left over from the morning in the night. Papa, if i start counting of your sacrifices for me this whole life would appear not good enough. You spent your whole life to build ours. I feel so guilty that i could do nothing for you. I feel so helpless and nervous because i had so many plans for you and mom. We had so many plans for us together. I promise you that i would take care of mummy just as you wanted me too. i would never fight with brother and would always keep my ego down. I give you my words that i would become exactly like you wanted me to be. After all, my life is all yours. Just like you, i don't believe in any kind of god. Hence, i would not curse him for anything. you were my god.your presence around me made me feel secure and loved. Alas, i would never feel like that again. If there is an afterlife, i wish that you come into my life in some form or other because without you your son can't imagine his life! i love you.