Everyday i contemplate how to talk, walk, think and behave like you. I followed you when you were with me and i am following you even stronger now that you are not around anymore. You have been my everything papa! I will try to fit in your shoes, to do everything you wanted to do or you wanted us to do and a lot more that you would not have even expected of me. I have never let you down papa and i will never will. Its my promise to you. I know i am guilty that i was not looking. I know i have a burden on my chest for the rest of my life. But if you must know, my spirit is broken and you have taken my soul with you. I assure you that you will never be forgotten- neither by me nor by this world. I promise you that you will live with me and in me. I have a deep hole in my heart that day by day gets more sore. I don't know the way out out of this dark tunnel. I am addicted to you. Its very hard now.